grape_soda: (srly?)
So I've been up all night because I can't sleep, because my protagonist has suddenly started to take shape and the getting is good for writing right now. I don't know how it is for other people, but for me, writing is either feast or famine. I mean when it's famine I still write anyway, even though it's dry and tasteless and makes no sense. I've got this whole folder of stuff I wrote through famine periods, because my fingers move on the keyboard no matter what. But when it's feast, it flows endlessly and it's like I have some weird connection to some distant world of magic or something that sends these thoughts and this sort of weird wisdom I'm sure I don't really have into my fingers, through my heart and not my brain. Like, my brain has no part of writing when it's feast.

But the point of all this is that I was thinking that I want to be annoyed because my writing won't let me sleep, but all I can be is happy because all I can think about is how much I LOVE WRITING. Seriously, it's the one thing I've been consistently passionate about since I could form coherent thoughts. Before I could hold a pencil I would come up with these long and complicated tales on my head and draw them out in scribbles, and then in grade school I'd tap out these stupid long stories on notebook paper, and then eventually I moved on to writing horror novels in notebooks in high school. And then I discovered writing on the computer and I was pumping out thousands of words a week of crappy fanfiction and horrific tales of the occult, endlessly, until it started becoming something like actual novels. I think I've morphed into a completely separate person at least four times since I got really into writing, but this crazy blinding passion for it is something that's remained consistent no matter what, no matter how sad or scared or self-loathing or stupid or jaded or whatever else I've ever been I was, writing still WORKED. It's like this connection to something outside of myself, something bigger, some other world that I can only scrape a little bit of fairy dust off the edge of when I write. Is this what it feels like for monks when they meditate? Is this that sublime state of mind they reach, or what? Am I tasting it a little bit? It's so exciting to think about, and it makes me so damn happy.

So wow... that was a novel in itself, wasn't it? XD I guess the point of this is that it's good to have passion for at least one thing, even if it's just purely recreational like mine is.

So what's your passion? Comment here, or write up your own minirant and link me to it. I want to know <3
grape_soda: (Tamaki mad)
So, some teacher's pet decided it would be a good idea to nark on me for posting AMV's on Youtube, so chances are my account's deletion is eminent. It's a shame, because I love Ritsu Minami so having his name as my account name was boss ;_; I'll post my new username in an entry when it happens.

Also, COMMISSIONS WILL BE LATE. I have a wrist brace on right now and typing is difficult, not to mention jewelry work. It'll have to wait until I get it off!

AND: my rabid Ouran fangirliness is starting to peter out slightly and needs revived. I'll take any help anyone has to offer because I don't want to lose my passion for this fandom X3
grape_soda: (Haruhi)
Okay, so, fandom rant, alright? I know there are more important things going on right now, but seriously...
So, Peach Girl made me laugh out loud. It was adorable and fun and crazy and I loved it. I read it back in high school (it was actually my first shoujo manga... Gravitation totally doesn't count XD).So I found Peach Girl: A Change of Heart (the second series) at the library and checked out the first three volumes. And... gah. While the original series was lighthearted and amusing, ACoH is just.... ugh. It's just an endless repetitive cycle of attempted rape and relationship problems. Cycle: Momo gets mad at Kiley for something stupid and gets jealous and decides he doesn't love her. Thinks about Toshi for like ten minutes. Momo almost gets raped and Kiley saves her. She forgives him and then they're happy and totally in love for like ten minutes. Then this cycle repeats. Over and over and over. And let's not forget Sae's attempts to sabotage Momo's happiness every five minutes. Wow. NO relationship should be as dramatic and as much trouble as Momo and Kiley's. Honestly she'd probably be happier on her own because she second guesses and overanalyzes everything and causes drama that's not really there when she has a boyfriend.I am so tired of this series /: it's the only manga I've ever read and then wanted to drop altogether. Maybe since I'm used to things like Ouran I'm spoiled and just assume that the heroine is supposed to be sane and there's supposed to be humor. But oh well.

Anyway, on to other matters. On the subject of chapter 81 of Ouran: HOLY SHIT MOE TIME. TamaHaru FTW. Tamaki and Haruhi are super cute when they're actually in a relationship ^^ That chapter kinda completed my life a little bit. Love. Tamaki's still such a damn idiot, though. When he said he didn't love her at first I wanted to kill him. If anyone knows where I can read or download the next chapter when it comes out (since Ouran is suddenly like an illegal drug for scanlation sites), I'd love if you'd tell me! I found a site that still hosts scanlations of the Ouran manga

In other news, financial issues are getting a little better. We paid our house payment and so I'm not so worried anymore. Not going to be able to afford internet any time soon, but I'm surprised to find I don't miss it much anymore. I got online today and found I didn't really have much I wanted to do. I miss everybody, but I guess it's not the hugest deal in the world. Next time I get online I'll probably have a new chapter of Duet to post.

On Saturday we threw my sister a surprise party. It was fun as hell and she was SO surprised. It was super awesome.We played Sims and Clue and Silent Hill: Homecoming (which is extremely scary, by the way. Not as good as Silent Hill 2, but still scary). There also turned out to be enough money in the change jar for us to be able to just barely afford to go to the fair. I gave my parents a lecture about how we should be using that money to pay bills and they were just like "Geez, just go and have fun." I swear, I'm turning into an old woman. But we're going to the fair tomorrow with Kiona, Natalie, and Sammy. It should be fun.

Everything is going alright despite the financial situation, and Brittany and I have been playing a lot of Sims to pass the time. School starts next week and I'm going to be bored sitting around the house. I want to look for a second job but when the cleaning job is in full swing I already work about seven hours a day cleaning and I don't need MORE work. I guess I just have to hope business picks up soon. Maybe there'll be a lot of cleaning around Christmas. I only have $4 left so I hope it happens sooner than later XD

Well, I guess I should go. I hope to talk to you guys soon!
My cell is behind the cut ) if anyone needs to get a hold of me, since I won't be available online much for a while yet <3

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Jun. 16th, 2010 09:04 pm
grape_soda: (Tamaki mad)
I'd honestly be pretty pleased if all of these stupid OC's on Formspring would just go away /: *gripe gripe gripe* I'm so sick of their "LOL I'm in love with _______ RP with me" nonsense. I joined the whole "Ask the Host Club" thing to answer questions as one of the hosts and these OC's have ruined it for me with how annoying they are. I wish they would all shut up. I've actually been avoiding Formspring altogether lately because of them.
grape_soda: (Default)
So, I participate in the whole Ask the Host Club thing on Formspring XD and on one of my accounts I keep getting questions from a few Haruhis not involved in it, which is fine but...

http://www.formspring.me/HaruhiFujiokaa
http://www.formspring.me/HaruhiFujioka1

DX Am I the ONLY Haruhi on Formspring that has the ability to remain even SLIGHTLY in-character? *gripes*

I mean, look at this:
Q: If Hikaru asked you to marry him what would you do?
A: >//< Kyaaah! Of course Of course!

*dies from OCCness* It's not even about the fact that Haruhi does not love Hikaru (at all) in the canon. It's just... good lord. ;_;

*shuts up because it doesn't even matter*

Anyway, on second thought, that second Haruhi isn't THAT OOC ^^;
But the first is just horrible.
grape_soda: (Tamaki mad)
So, here is that TamaHaru I promised last time ^^; look out for ridiculous helpings of fluff! The summary makes it sound depressing, but it isn't at all XD

Also: WAAAAHG DX Someone gave me spoilers for the new chapter of Ouran, which came out in Japan today. Aside from the fact that the contents of said new chapter are disappointing to me, I also HATE SPOILERS MORE THAN ANYTHING IN THE WORLD! AHHHHHHHHHH! WHY WOULD SOMEONE SPOIL THAT FOR ME! I want to scream DX< *tears out soul*

And lookit:

Taste the Rainbow X3 by ~tatteredmemory on deviantART
Pretty? XD I had fun with the rainbow colors.
grape_soda: (Tamaki purple eyes)
Sooooo anyway, Omari's Sister released translations of the new Ouran chapter. Click here to download: http://omaris-sister.blogspot.com/2009/11/ouran-high-school-host-club-chapter-76.html

READ IT QUICK AND THEN RANT WITH ME! READ IT NOW, OKAY!??!?!?!?!?!? OMFG!!! *spazz attack* AHHHHHHHHHH!

spoilers beyond this point )

Anyway, I want to take this opportunity to wish everyone a happy Thanksgiving in advance! ^.^ Due to family circumstances and a lot of busy-ness, and boring stuff no one will care about, I probably won't be online at all for at least a week or more. Take care, guys, and have fun without me XD

I'm making cookies for EVERYONE I hold dear, and if you're reading this, you're definitely on the list! PM me with your name, address, and favorite kind of cookie if you feel comfortable and I'll try to have the cookies to you before Christmas!

toodles,
Danie <3

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